Monday, November 3, 2014

Fall back - Gaining an hour of sleep

Fall back today and I do believe we all gained an hour of sleep!!!!

Danny didn't feel like it today... not today.
He woke, comes down the steps sounding like an elephant saying "Ees"  over and over again.

He immediately goes to his "black computer" which is his iPad (lifeline to living).  Danny finds the exact track on youtube that he want to watch/listen to and begins his rigorous pacing around the house *through the hallway - through the family room - over and over again.

Around 4:20 am - I was not happy... I notice that his pacing was fast.  His voice is rising as I continue to lie still on the couch praying that he may go back to bed (I always think a miracle may happen, but truth be told, once he awakens no matter what time- he is up for the day unless I give him more meds to induce sleep).  My general rule is if he wakes after 3am, I do not medicate him back to sleep.
You would think after 20 years that I might know, and just get up... I'm stubborn that way.

So much for that extra hour.

Once I understand that his "ears" are hurting noting the his sounds of "Ees" and he wants me to use a q-tip and sing (he thinks that makes the ear infection go away). I need to listen carefully - his sounds make sense to me.  I know that he wants me to get a q-tip I know that his ear(s) are hurting and I know that I better start moving or things will get out of control.

I quickly get up, unlock the kitchen, gather some q-tips and re-lock the kitchen door.

He makes noises to remind me that I need to sing "Where is Thumbkin"  prior to that q-tip entering his ear.  The sound of me singing that song relieves his anxiety of the q-tip entering his ear.

I sing as softly as possible the words to "Where is Thumbkin" and gently tickle the inside of each ear with the q-tip to try and identify if he has pain, and if he does, which side the pain is coming from (or both).  It seems as though the left side is worse. Not sure - he is so sensitive with both sides today... I quickly notate in his daily notes that pain seems to be originating from the "left ear" and to remind myself to re-check later.

I quickly go back to the kitchen - unlock - crush three tylenol, dump the powder into his "pink yogurt" which he is already asking for in his own way.  It is taking longer today because of the tylenol to help ease some of the ear pain - get his ice water and re-lock the kitchen door to feed him the pink yogurt with hidden tylenol and ice water.  Once he is finished, the empty yogurt cup/spoon and empty cup with ice must be brought back to the kitchen because he has some sort of fear/anxiety if it is left in the family room or out in the open for him to see.

It always seems as though hist ear infections start on a weekend when the doctor isn't until Monday?
Wondering if this ever happens to others as well?

The pacing never stops... I wait 30 minutes and then give him first set of am meds as the noises from the reflux are now so loud, I don't want to wake his dad.  I can literally tell where he is feeling his pain from what I hear.  His throat must burn, he continues to swallow non-stop and makes faces that are so painful looking that it hurts me to look.  Also, certain times he tries to swallow, but his throat must be swollen inside he can't seem to swallow or catch his breath, the noises he makes are from his throat and are sharp and continual.  Selfishly, I have to admit that those noises go right through me.  He doesn't know that these noises must make the pain worse, but he doesn't understand and keeps making them which must antagonize his sore throat, etc.  His stomach must also hurt because he sits at least 10-20 times on the toilet and thinks he has go go, but it must be actual stomach pain because nothing comes out.  Unlock kitchen - reflux meds crushed in pink  yogurt, ice water - lock kitchen - give meds with yogurt, monitor ice water - unlock kitchen - dirty stuff in sink - lock kitchen.

As we breathe air to live, pink yogurt followed by ice water is our "air" to my son.
Once he has a pink yogurt (no matter what time or whatever meds), it must be followed by a cup of ice water.  Ice water needs to be a separate post.... that is a long story in and of itself.

He continuously asks for pink yogurt until I give in after another 30 minutes for his next set of am meds at 5:30am.

Forward 19 hours... the day has been long, he is still uncomfortable.  It is now 12:29am and he sleeps lightly.   A headache awakens him several times as he asks for "washcloth".  I soak a washcloth with cold water.  I wipe his forehead, the crown and back of his head, and down the center of his back to his tailbone back to the top of his head.  I do it again and stop.  Several minutes later,  he asks again - re-soak the washcloth with ice cold water and follow the pattern again.  He settles in for more sleep.

I hope tomorrow is an easier day for him.  I hope he has a better day ....

A glimpse into the first hour of our daily lives.  Autism is never ending. . .

**Pink yogurt which is fed to him at least 20 times per day is Yoplait Strawberry Thick and Creamy yogurt (no lumps).

Monday, September 15, 2014



We’ve all gone through hard times. And we all get through them. However, some get through them better than others. So what is their secret? Most of it has to do with attitude. Here are 13 things to remember when life gets rough:
1. What is, is.
Buddha’s famous saying tells us: “It is your resistance to ‘what is’ that causes your suffering.” Think about that for a minute. It means that our suffering only occurs when we resist how things are. If you can change something, then take action! Change it! But if you can’t change it, then you have two choices: (1) either accept it and let go of the negativity, or (2) make yourself miserable by obsessing over it.
2. It’s only a problem if you think it’s a problem.
Many times, we are our own worst enemy. Happiness is really dependent on perspective. If you think something is a problem, then your thoughts and emotions will be negative. But if you think it’s something you can learn from, then suddenly, it’s not a problem anymore.

3. If you want things to change, you need to start with changing yourself.
Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. Don’t you know people whose lives are chaotic and stressful? And isn’t that largely because they feel chaotic inside? Yes, it is. We like to think that changing our circumstances will change us. But we have it backwards—we need to change ourselves first before our circumstances will change.
4. There is no such thing as failure—only learning opportunities.
You should just wipe the word “failure” right out of your vocabulary. All great people who have ever achieved anything have “failed” over and over. In fact, I think it was Thomas Edison who said something like, “I did not fail at inventing the light bulb, I just first found 99 ways that it didn’t work.” Take your so-called “failures” and learn something from them. Learn how to do it better next time.

5. If you don’t get something you want, it just means something better is coming.
That’s hard to believe sometimes, I know. But it’s true. Usually, when you look back at your life, you will be able to see why it was actually a good thing that something didn’t work out. Maybe the job you didn’t get would have made you spend more time away from your family, but the job you did get was more flexible. Just have faith that everything happens exactly the way it’s supposed to.
6. Appreciate the present moment.
This moment will never come again. And there is always something precious about every moment. So don’t let it pass you by! Soon it will just be a memory. Even moments that don’t seem happy can be looked upon as something that you might miss someday. As the country song by Trace Adkins says, “You’re gonna miss this…you’re gonna want this back. You’re gonna wish these days hadn’t gone by so fast….you may not know this now, but you’re gonna miss this…”

7. Let go of desire.
Most people live with “attached mind.” What this means is that they attach themselves to a desire, and when they don’t get it, their emotions plummet into negativity. Instead, try to practice “detached mind.” That means that when you want something, you will still be happy whether you get it or not. Your emotions remain happy or neutral.
8. Understand and be grateful for your fears.
Fear can be a great teacher. And overcoming fears can also make you feel victorious. For example, when I was in college, I feared public speaking (one of the top 3 fears of all humans). So I find it humorous now that not only do I speak in front of a group every day by being a college professor, I also teach public speaking! Overcoming fears just takes practice. Fear is really just an illusion. It’s optional.

9. Allow yourself to experience joy.
Believe it or not, I know way too many people who don’t allow themselves to have fun. And they don’t even know how to be happy. Some people are actually addicted to their problems and the chaos in them so much that they wouldn’t even know who they are without them. So try to allow yourself to be happy! Even if it’s just for a small moment, it’s important to focus on joy, not your hardships.
10. Don’t compare yourself to other people.
But if you do compare yourself, compare yourself with people who have it worse than you. Unemployed? Be grateful that you live in a country that gives unemployment compensation, because most people in the world live on less that $750 a year. So you don’t look like Angelina Jolie? Well, I bet there are more people who don’t than do. And you are probably way better looking than most people. Focus on that.

11. You are not a victim.
You need to get out of your own way. You are only a “victim” of your own thoughts, words and actions. No one “does” something to you. You are the creator of your own experience. Take personal responsibility and realize that you can get out of your hard times. You just need to start with changing your thoughts and actions. Abandon your victim mentality and become victorious. From victim to VICTOR!
12. Things can—and do—change.
“And this too shall pass” is one of my favorite sayings. When we are stuck in a bad situation, we think that there is no way out. We think nothing will ever change. But guess what? It will! Nothing is permanent except death. So get out of the habit of thinking that things will always be this way. They won’t. But you do need to take some sort of action for things to change. It won’t magically happen all on its own.

13. Anything is possible.

Miracles happen every day. Really—they do. I wish I had enough space to write about all the miraculous things that have happened to people I know—from healing stage 4 cancer naturally to having their soul mate appear out of nowhere. Trust me: it happens all the time. You just need to believe it does. Once you do, you have won the battle.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

When the word CAN'T is no longer part of your vocabulary...

This is a beautiful 4min and 53 sec video when the word CAN'T is not a part of a persons vocabulary.

What an inspirational way to start the week!
Happy Sunday!

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Happy Spring!

 Thursday 3 - 20 - 14
Spring has sprung!  

No matter how long the winter, spring is sure to follow!
... And it has been very long winter indeed!

Spring feel good activity:
Adapt, modify and make it from your heart!  
Danny and I will be making our version of this today!

Original blog diy:
Blog feature:

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Happy first day of Spring to you!!!!
All our love,
Sue and Danny

Friday, January 31, 2014

The Raw Truth of Why We Can't Meet Today...

Happy Friday to you all.

I've decided to start sharing some of our "lives" to show you the raw truth of what autism looks like from day to day in our home.

I'm not ashamed, but I am scared to read comments because I think people are so judgmental sometimes.  Please be kind, the days have been challenging.

This is an email I wanted to share.  It is a response to our representative in an agency that reports to the county where we live.  I must allow for a monthly monitoring in our home so that my son can continue to receive services (his two part time staff in our home).

I have changed the name of the staff person and the agency so that I am not sued in any way shape or form.  The agency has already called Child and Youth Services on me from when my son had what I thought was a tic in his ear.  That will be another "raw truth" post for some future date.

ok.... here goes....

Hi Yvonne,

I rec'd your email on Tuesday 1/28 about having a monthly monitoring meeting on Wed (1/29).

I could not reply Tuesday 1/28 or Wednesday 1/29  b/c I was not able to sit long enough to think an email through that would even remotely make sense with Danny's minute by minute needs and challenges.

I rec'd another email on Wednesday 1/29 about having a monitoring on Friday (1/31)  at 11:00.

I then phoned on Wednesday 1/29 and left a message that I couldn't do Friday (1/31) because Danny has been extremely challenging lately but we could maybe shoot for Monday (2/3) at 11:00 (hopefully he would be more manageable) (in the hopes that Sunday I let him have the entire day without trying to do any sort of scheduled activities with him.  Sunday is a full day where we do not try to engage him in any sort of purposeful activity. It is a day where we try to "stim" along with him.  He does shut everyone out but perhaps one day he won't.  He seems to understand in his own way the it is "his" day of (fully supervised at arms length) Danny directed time.   

I rec'd your phone message today 1/30 about tomorrow being the last day of the month (1/31) and you have to do a monitoring because Monday is in February.

I phoned and left another message today (1/30) that perhaps your (Yvonne's) supervisor A or your (Yvonne's) supervisor B could approve a later monitoring due to our specific situation.

I then thought I should send an email explaining in more detail of what has been going on (ad nauseum)...

To start off, let me say that a monthly monitoring is the furthest thing from my mind when Danny is this manic.

I have had to cancel all my doctors appointments/ meetings/ errands/ outings/ etc. and haven't left this house for well over a month unless it was with Danny for a short period of time [i.e. ride to help him calm down [e.g. 1am - 6am)] so that Bill could try to get some sleep as he works on a roof and it is imperative that he does not fall off a roof due to lack of judgement from being so tired [lack of sleep].  Looking back (via hindsight) this regressive type manic behavior that Danny presents started in October/November).  Bill has had to stay home from work for at least 15 workdays (in January alone) to try and help manage.  (In case you are wondering how he can work on a roof with all the snow, he tarps the entire roof at the close of each work day so that he can sweep the tarp, remove it and continue to perform the job.  He also has had some small interior jobs to do on the extreme weather days.)  Also important to note here, his work is seasonal and our winters are financially hard to begin with (as well as hard on him physically) We still have the same bills to pay even though it is winter.  He doesn't get as much done in the cold/snow as the days are shorter, the work is slower (it is approx. 20 degrees colder on a roof [and vice versa 20 degrees hotter in the summer] and the wind chill is ten times worse).  He has to work every day possible including Saturdays and Sundays and hasn't been able to because of the challenges that Danny presents.  Needless to say we are behind with the mortgage, utilities (phone, electric and cable), and our food has been a luxury of sorts...

We haven't had a heater ALL WINTER LONG.  Our heater broke last winter from when the worker came to clean/service the heater for the yearly contract with the heating/oil company.  We were told by at least 5 plumbers/heating companies that our heater was beyond repair and we needed a new one.  The estimates rolled in with the lowest price of $15,000.00  There was and is no way we could afford a new heater.  The fact that we have had no heat for that long has taken a toll on all of us.  I am able to say (with tears strolling down my face) that Bill rebuilt the heater during the wee hours of the night when Danny was able to sleep and finally, our heater (which isn't that old) turned on and has stayed on since 1/20/14.  He has no training in HVAC, but was able to work step by step through to rebuild and "fix" our broken heater.  We have had heat for 10 days now. However, the heater was not the cause nor even part of the challenges that Danny is having.

Why I need to have a meeting on Monday (in February) in lieu of Friday (in January)... He gets extremely agitated with people in the house (even when his own twin brother {Billy} stops by the house prior to catching a train back to Temple). When staff come for their shift, it takes him about 1-3 hours to get used to another person in the house (transition) and he has a day to day trusted relationship with them.  It also takes him 1-3 hours when staff leave the house (transition).  Until this mania lessens, I do not and cannot let people come to or visit our house (other than his two staff) because I cannot agitate him any further when his baseline presents with fear, anxiety and agitation. It isn't worth the added stress in the house that these visits bring  (increased lack of sleep to what he already lacks, more pacing and hyperactive stimulative actions which hurts his fragile health already.  His health declines because it brings on headaches that are even worse than he already has, migraines that last longer and seem to be more intense in pain, increased reflux, bowel issues, stomach problems, tremors, etc etc etc.) Although he does know you, it is a monthly visit and there isn't a trusted relationship like there is for daily staff.  

Danny would not only be agitated for the actual monitoring meeting (in home visit), he will be agitated long after you leave (perhaps running into several days).  If you did come for a monthly monitoring tomorrow, you would only see him for a few minutes (because that is all you have to see and is all that he would be able to take) and then I would have to have his staff try and take him on a long drive to nowhere for the remaining time that you are here.  After you left,  I would have to then call staff to bring him back home and it is sad to see how extreme he becomes and who even knows how rough or for how long... When Danny has increased agitation, he physically tremors (tongue, lips, fingers and hands, legs, feet, etc.), he may have mini seizures, and his headaches get  worse. His pacing won't stop and if he is able to sit, he will rock.  If his agitation/fear/anxiety increases from baseline, his headaches/migraines get so severe that nothing I do can help.  With increased anxiety and/or fear he gets sick to his stomach and will continue to throw up until he sometimes dehydrates.  He has no off switch, there is no regulation in his body.  His acid reflux always gets worse when he is presented with things that "agitate or scare him".  I've seen this behavior from his own twin brother visiting the house (which I have had to stop his visits temporarily as well).  Yes, you read it correctly, his own twin brother!?! How sad... how very sad.  I choke up at the thought and typing this is making me cry so hard that I need to take a break.  If I have had to stop visits from my other son, it is my hope that someone from your agency would understand that a monitoring is not what is in his best interest on Friday (in January) vs Monday (in February).  

It is also my hope that with this email, I will provide you with all the information that I normally give you at every monitoring:

He presents with:

-increased fear with people and also places.  He is not able to go anywhere or even get out of the car.  Favorite things are no longer even close to acceptable for Danny (e.g. walking around in the mall, going to arts and crafts stores, going to bead shows, picking out beads, beading, going to Happy Tymes to play basketball, going for a walk in the park, going to McDonalds, getting out of the car.... nothing; 

-lack of long term sleep (anything over 1-2 simultaneous hours); he is unable to shut his body down enough to sleep (even with his medication cocktail [geodon/remeron/valium] that has been successful enough for the past 5+ years); he jumps up from a sound sleep at a hint of a noise or activity in the room or perhaps noises in his own mind;  This leads me to believe he is not able to get into a deep enough sleep (Delta/Rem stages 3, 4 and 5);

-increased need for drinking ice water (24/7 continually); not only does he want ice water 24/7, he will drink (if permitted) until he pukes and then start over again; he now drinks the air when he is at the bottom of the cup and will not stop until you physically remove the cup or straw from his mouth (which is rather hard b/c he is so strong); it seems to be a physical need combined with a stimulatory activity that is brain based (watching a specifically chosen part of a you-tube video which changes from time to time, sometimes drink to drink); this has been a huge issue for the past few weeks; I have tried to do an functional behavior assessment and continue to take ridiculous amounts and types of data which has resulted in nothing that is remotely helpful for him; 

-seemingly healthy for Danny (rule out "virus, cold, flu" and many other things); important to note here that he just finished his 2nd course of steroids [prednisone] which totaled a hefty 300 mg for this latest dose; 

-extremely hyperactive, pacing and not physically able to sit nor lay down to relax, hence unable to shut down for longer periods of sleep [see above]; when he feels pain his "normal" is the opposite of what I do (for example, if I get a headache, I modify my environment by turning the lights out, turning off the tv/ radio/ computer; I try to rub my temples; take tylenol or motrin and lie down to try and relax); When Danny is getting a headache or has a headache - he paces non stop, he turns up his ipad and watches parts of video's non stop while he paces, he drinks water, he used to ask for a bath prior to this latest episode, if I can get him to lie down, he will jump up like a spring and continue to pace until the pain must get so extreme he will start to then sometimes scream or until I physically shut him down with medication to force his body to relax or he would pass out or bite his hand (which I have had to learn through past experience)  

-inability to concentrate for any sort of directed activity; he went from tracing a few sentences several times a day to tracing 3 to 5 letters a day which is approx. 98% decrease in this activity alone; he used to enjoy: coloring with markers, colored pencils and/or crayons; sorting activities (independently), playing simple turn taking games such as "matching" and "what do you see" games; he cannot do paper/pencil tasks - nothing {I purchased so many new types of activities for the past few months thinking he was bored but he seemed to just shut down over the course of several weeks};  His days were full of modified activities where I would lesson plan to teach him: self care, safety, communication (both receptive and expressive), social skills that are acceptable in the home and in the community, etc.  At present, Danny is able to do specific activities that are only completed with full physical and verbal prompting (he sadly lost all independent maintenanced skills);  the specific activities on the best of days total no more than 15 minutes;  This is a decrease of over 99%;  

-inability to be in the same room with cups, glasses and/or water bottles (filled or not); he has some sort of fear/anxiety and will  "hide" until the cups/glasses and/or water bottles are removed from the room and locked away; if not removed in a timely fashion, his fear/anxiety will keep building;

-inability to be in the same room with someone who is eating or food on a plate ready to be eaten; once again he has a fear/anxiety and will hide until the food/plates are removed from the room and locked away; same as above, the food/plates need to removed in a timely fashion because the fear/anxiety keeps increasing; 

-fear/anxiety that is so high we have had to limit the amount of stimuli that he is able to handle which has resulted in us living in one room of our house *the family room".  Every other room is locked with a door that has an entry/exit doorknob that is locked at all times (needing keys to open).  We also sleep in the family room as you have seen in the past monitorings and must hide to eat and drink in the "locked" kitchen and take turns when staff is here.  I no longer have my last comfort to carry and sip my iced tea throughout the day; All closet doors also have exit/entry door knobs with keys and must be locked at all times; 

-inability to have free access to the toilet b/c he continues to pee or try to poop until he is bleeding from his rectum; we must lock the bathroom door; once again, it is important to note that he has lost "regulation" skills as he did have prior to his grand mal seizure; 

-inability to have free access to toilet paper b/c once he sees it, he must unravel it to the cardboard core, then throw it in the toilet and continue to flush until there is a grand flood; if he sees toilet paper, he will ask over and over again until it is finally is presented (a cardboard core) to show him that it is "empty"; his brain will not shut off (he would ask for a week if permitted); this is so sad and he is not being a "brat" or "acting out of a behavior"... his brain works in such a way where he cannot push stop - he can't continue on until this need is met... It becomes something that turns on in his brain and grows and grows until he is able to understand by seeing the card board core that it is indeed empty and all gone or able to "use" it all by unraveling and flushing; It is very difficult to put this into words as his brain works like this for a lot of other things as well;

-inability to have access to water (see above);

-inability to have access to the garage because he runs outside in his underwear, naked or whatever to "try and go for a ride";


-not like himself - or who he used to be not only prior to grand mal seizure but maybe back in September? He isn't the Danny that I know... 

Things have gotton more challenging (to say the least).  When I read his ISP it doesn't represent "Danny".  It shows him years ago (perhaps prior to his early tweens.)  Some of the changes that I requested (additions and deletions) weren't made - the ones that say nice fluffy things are still in there and that isn't what life has been like for the most part.  Most likely an oversight but it is far from what life has been like for and with Danny.

The bathroom has been renovated "Danny style".  All toilet paper is under lock and key in a different room. See above for toilet paper description. The flusher has had to be "physically" removed and we have to flush the toilet by lifting the porcelain lid on the back of the toilet to then pull a string that my husband rigged to the inner "flusher part" which is hooked to the inner chain.  When Danny leaves the bathroom, only then can you manually flush it.  He was continually flushing (see above) and burned out the well pump relay.  We've had to replace this and must wait till spring to have the well pump checked as we now do not get water on demand.  When the water is running, it stops for periods of time.  This includes the sink, bath, shower,etc.  Both upstairs and downstairs bathroom doors have new entry/exit doorknobs with a key.  He is always trying to fit "keys" into the knobs all around the house to gain access for certain things - thereby needing a few replacement doorknobs here and there... 

The entire house has been renovated to be "Danny style".  We live in one room in a 12 room house (including the basement and garage as two separate rooms).  I will explain further rooms in later emails when I have additional time to think the verbage through.

When I look at the "regression", it has been since his grand mal seizure.  A huge process that has taken us a long time to not only see, but understand.  As I have learned to understand each and every change (mostly out of necessity), many things need to be changed to ensure his safety while Bill and I try to continue to live within the house, eat and sleep as best as possible. 

I am unsure what is going on:

- if it is a manic episode,

-if he has severe depression, or some form of brain based psychological issues other than autism, mental retardation (intellectual 

- if he is having side effects from prednisone,

- if he needs another mri of his brain (his headaches are every day occurrences) - r/o any brain tumor,

- if he is getting sick again (ear infection, strept, pneumonia, or worse),

- if he is having seizures (some of the cause is most likely here b/c we have witnessed some earlier in the month),

- could these be changes to a different permanence (for the worse) or temporarily regression ?

- could he need a change in meds (perhaps the SSRI isn't working or not strong enough)?

- could this be something seasonal?

- or something I haven't thought of .... (the above are my best educative guesses from 24/7 monitoring and observation.

IF Danny isn't as manic, we can try Monday at 11am.

However, the remaining information is as follows:

- no change in meds except for the course of Prednisone which is now complete.
The Prednisone script was written and given as follows:
each pill was10 mgs... dosage was 4 pills for 3 days (40 mg for 3 days); 3 pills for 3 days (30 mg for 3 days); 2 pills for 3 days (20 mgs for 3 days) and 1 pill for 3 days (10 mg for 3 days) which totaled 300 mg for the entire course of Prednisone.

All other meds remained the same for the month of January.

Dr. N. phone in Prednisone after the visit we had in December.  In December, he wrote a 2nd course of antibiotic and said that if he didn't feel any better to let the office know and he would phone in a course of steroids for him.

Canceled allergist twice and was asked to reschedule on a Wednesday when he is able.

Canceled psychiatrist twice and rescheduled for the month of February.

It is extremely challenging when he is like this... I had to cancel five of his doctors appointments this past month.  I am not able to take him to the doctor b/c that would put even more undue stress on him and I couldn't imagine how he would react due of his fear to any doctor and their offices.  He has had so many surgeries, procedures, tests, pokes and prods which have resulted in an extreme fear / non-preference to the medical community and anything that has to do with it. 

I am trying hear you that it is the end of the month and the monitoring should be (must be?) by the 31st so that it happens in January, but Danny's mind or body doesn't regulate whether it is at the end of the month or not.... He does not regulate am or pm let alone  a monthly visit from an agency representing the county for his ISP.    We need every bit of sanity we have to effectively manage him in this household without any added stressors right now.

If he is still this rough on Monday - I will email you around 3-5am ish to reschedule.


From: Yvonne at the agency
Sent: Wednesday, January 29, 2014 2:44:40 PM
Subject: FW: Hello are you free Friday at 11:00?

Hello Sue,

It’s me again!


From: Yvonne at the agency
Sent: Tuesday, January 28, 2014 12:22 PM
Subject: Hello are you free Friday at 11:00?

Hi Sue,

I hope that all is well. Are you free on Friday at 11:00 for a monitoring? Also, if you could have the progress notes and the immunizations, that would be awesome.

If you are not free on Friday, I will work around your schedule as much as possible!

I look forward to hearing from you.

Thank you,
Yvonne at the agency

 Ok... That was it.  I felt the need to share what autism is like with a young adult (Danny is 20 years old).  I read many "cute" things about little ones and I have to somehow show the real truth of what life can be like.  

Autism is not pretty.  I hate what it took away from my son.  
However in that same breath,  I love my son like nothing else 
and will do anything for him to help him be as happy and safe 
as possible.  I will never give up. I fight for him because he 
cannot fight for himself.  I try and keep his dignity in tact and it 
is hard when the system(s) don't really seem to care.  
Even though they say it in words, it isn't truly heartfelt.  

If the systems did care, my son would be allowed the time 
he needs to get through his difficult period perhaps even 
offering him something additional with regards to services.  
Also, we would be allowed our time as a family to get through 
this without any additional stress.

Have a great day and a super weekend.
Sue xoxox